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I leaned back, nonchalantly placing my hands in the pockets
of my slacks. Eyeing them up and down with a threatening regard. “You ever held
a gun before?” I mocked, cocking my head to the side.
“Please… Martinez… please… just stop…”
I snidely smiled. There was no way in hell I was going to
stop. I was just getting fucking started. “Your hands are shaking. First rule
of holding a gun. Never let your enemies see your fear. It just makes you a
fucking pussy. So, what's your next move? I am right here.” I spread my arms
out at my sides. Sticking my chest out. “This is your chance to get rid of me.
Do it! Pull the fucking trigger! Do it!” I viciously baited. Not giving a
flying fuck anymore.
“Stop! Please! Fucking stop!”
“I'm a bad man! I've done unforgivable things. Here's your
chance! Fucking take it! Send me straight to fucking Hell! Now!”
I always knew this day would come. I had made so many
fucking mistakes throughout my life, but this moment would never be one of
them. I lived far longer than I ever thought I would. Always hoping I’d meet my
maker from a loving hand, but we don’t always get what we want.
I had killed.
I had avenged.
I had loved.
I had destroyed lives and now it was my time to pay for
being the Grim fucking Reaper, taking lives that didn’t belong to me. I just
never thought my life would end like this.
Lying in a pool of my own goddamn blood.
Provoking my assassin to pull the fucking trigger.
“Let’s go, Martinez. The girls are
waiting for us,” my friend Leo stated for the tenth fucking time.
“Alright, hold the fuck up. I'm
coming. Besides, you know they'll wait all night for us,” I replied with a
cocky grin as I walked toward the back door. Careful to make sure the
bodyguards and cameras were set up throughout the house didn’t see us.
“Alejandro! You’re not allowed to
leave. Dad warned you. He doesn’t like you leaving the house when they’re not
around, especially without taking a bodyguard with you,” Amari scolded while
grabbing my arm, stopping me dead in my tracks.
My older sister Amari was always
the perfect little angel. I, on the other hand, was the devil. I think my dad
was secretly proud when I acted out, but he never voiced it and never let it
slide, keeping up pretenses was what he was best at. He raised and molded me to
take over his empire since the day I was born, like all the generations of the
Martinez men before me. I was fourteen, almost fifteen, but being a kid was
never in the cards for me. Which was why I took every opportunity to do
whatever the hell I wanted, especially when there wasn’t someone constantly on
my ass telling me I couldn’t. I didn’t give a shit if I got grounded. I knew I
only had a few years to live a semi-normal life, and I took advantage of it
every chance I could get.
Amari was a year-and-a-half older
than me, though it was of no importance. She always acted younger than her
years. She had been sneaking into my bed ever since I could remember, because
every little sound in the night frightened her. I didn’t have the luxury of
being scared. Fear wasn’t a part of the life I was expected to lead. It was
only a matter of time until I was the one who frightened her, too.
Exactly the way our father did.
He called it respect, but I knew
it was nothing more than intimidation. Amari had always been weak, and it
bothered our father in ways I had to make up for. I had to protect her
even though I was younger.
“I don’t want you getting in
trouble, Alejandro,” Sophia murmured loud enough for me to hear.
I grinned. Turning my attention
away from Amari, my eyes locked with Sophia who was standing at the end of the
foyer.
Sophia was my sister’s best
friend. I always thought their friendship was unconventional because she was my
age. Her bright green eyes, pouty lips, and the smell of her long, dark brown
hair had been doing things to me since the first time I met her a few years
ago. She was from the wrong side of the tracks, so to speak. She attended our
New York private school on a scholarship offered to a select number of
low-income housing kids with exceptional grades. My sister took to her
immediately. She hated the pretentious pricks in our school.
Amari and I had that in common.
Leo and I had been friends since
the first day of high school. He was a geeky-ass kid who was getting picked on
by all of my so-called friends. One day we were all standing around our lockers
before the first bell rang for class, just shooting the shit. The boys were
arguing over who got the furthest with Catherine "Big Tits" St.
James. I was too focused on watching Sophia trying to reach the top shelf of
her locker down the hall, not paying them any mind.
"Well, look what we have
here, boys," Jimmy announced. We had gone to school together since we were
little. I turned to see who he was talking about. Five lockers down there was a
scrawny kid with glasses. He looked like he didn't belong in our school. Jimmy went
barreling up to him, knocking the books out of his hands.
"Are you lost? The school for
under-privileged kids is on the other side of the city."
Leo ignored him, picking up his
books.
The bell rang, warning us to get
to class. Jimmy and a few other guys shoved Leo into his locker, shut it, and
walked away laughing. Needless to say, Jimmy and the boys were no longer
laughing once school let out. I made sure to set them all straight, and ordered
them not to fuck with Leo ever again. Or else. There was something about the
kid, and to this day I don’t know what made me come to his rescue.
After that, he became a permanent
fixture in my life. He was still a geeky-ass kid, but it no longer mattered. My
friendship was his shield. Nobody would dare to fuck with him anymore. Even at
that young of an age, I never pussyfooted around. I meant what I said, and I
said what I meant. I never apologized for who I was or my actions. People could
take it or leave it. I didn't give a shit. My don’t-give-a-fuck attitude only
made people want to hangout with me more, when in reality they should have been
staying as far away from me as possible.
Everyone knew who my father was,
and they feared me because of it.
I had never been a fan of those
who preyed on the weak. Maybe it was because I saw so much weakness in my
sister. I’d sacrifice everything just to protect her if need be. My father knew
Amari wasn’t cut from the same cloth, which was why I was never allowed to
leave the house when they weren’t around. It never made any sense in my eyes.
There were always bodyguards everywhere, just waiting to pull the trigger if
shit hit the fan. I assumed they were getting paid a fuck-load of money to do a
job my father seemed more inclined to give me.
“Amari, they’re not going to be
back until late. If they even come home at all. They’re at someone’s initiation
or some shit,” I replied, pulling my arm out of her grasp.
“Aren’t you tired of being
grounded all the time? Why can’t you just listen for once? It’s not that hard,”
she sassed, waving her hands in the air.
“Just keep your mouth shut. If
they come home, you didn’t see me.”
“I’m a terrible li—”
“Carajo, Amari! Haga lo que le digo pues,” I shouted,
“Fuck, Amari! Just do it,” annoyed
with her persistent nagging.
She sighed, looking away from me.
She hated it when I yelled at her.
Our dad did it enough for everyone. He believed in tough love. Hugs and kisses
were few and far between. We rarely heard the words “I love you” from his
mouth. Our mother was the only one who showed us love, tenderness, and
affection. I stepped toward Amari, lightly grabbing her chin, forcing her to
look at me again. She peered up at me through her lashes. I knew what this was
really about. She worried something would happen to me. She worried constantly
about everything. Especially what harm could come to her if I wasn’t around.
“I’ll be fine. You’ll be fine. I
promise, you got Dad’s new goons here. I won’t be back late.”
I kissed her forehead, glancing
one last time at Sophia before I turned and left. I could tell she wanted to
ask where we were going, but she knew better. I winked at her with a sly grin,
and she warily smiled. It wasn’t until later that night I wished I had never
left the house, and by the look on Sophia’s face, she felt what my sister might
have expected all along.
“You fuck, I’m so late. If my dad
catches me, it’s my ass he’s going to lay out, Leo,” I stated, shooting him a
death glare.
Those girls were definitely not
worth the shit I’d be in if my parents got home before I did. Of course, my
mother would try to defend me like she always did, but it wouldn’t matter. At
the end of the day, what my father said ruled, end of story. The husbands word
was the law in Hispanic marriages. The wife was subservient to her husband. She
raised the kids, made sure the house was clean, and dinner was on the table
every night. Now, add in the fact my father was a crime boss, and you get the
picture. He was one of the most feared and hated men in the world, but to my
mom, he was God.
He laughed, throwing his head back
while we pedaled our bikes as fast as we could.
“You smell that?” Leo replied with
a shit-eating grin.
“Smell what?”
“Smells like pussy to me,” he
chuckled.
“I’m the pussy? Who had to save
your sorry ass, once upon time? I sure as hell wasn’t a pussy then, besides,
you wouldn’t know what pussy smells like if it was sitting on your fucking
face.”
“Relax, they’re not home, it’s
barely past two in the morning. I’ve never seen your dad leave a party first.
He knows better than to turn his back to anyone,” he chuckled. “Alright, bro,
this is my street. Talk to you tomorrow.”
Leo disappeared into the darkness
as I pedaled even harder and faster. Praying I’d make it on time. My heart was
beating out of my chest, sweat pooling at my temples. My mind was already
racing, imagining every punishment he could bring on me.
I opened the side door of the
garage, breathing a sigh of relief when I saw their limo was still gone.
Looking down at my watch, I calculated where the cameras would be directed at that
time. I had snuck out often enough to know they were on a fifteen-minute
rotation. I quietly walked in, making sure none of my dad’s meatheads were
around. When the coast was clear, I ran up the backstairs, taking three steps
at a time toward Amari’s bedroom. I wanted to let her know I was home safe,
since she probably spent most of the night worrying about me.
“Amari? Sophia?” I called out,
lightly knocking on her bedroom door a few times. “I’m home,” I whispered,
knocking again before opening the door. “I’m coming in. You up?”
More silence.
I looked around the dark room not
finding them anywhere. Her bed was still made from this morning. “Where the
hell are they?” I asked myself.
Amari hated staying up late, she
was always an early riser. Something wasn’t right. A disturbing, unsettling
feeling I couldn’t describe, washed over me. Before I knew what was happening,
my body turned, moving on its own accord. I ran out of the room, making my way
down the long, narrow hallway toward my bedroom. All I could hear were the
sounds of my footsteps echoing off the walls. My shoes pounded into the floor,
one right after the other. I couldn’t get to my room fast enough.
“Amari!” I was calling out her
name before I had even made it into my bedroom. “Amari, where the fuck are
you?” I shouted, when I found my room empty, too.
Our house was fucking huge, but we
never strayed too far from our bedrooms. They were the only rooms in the house
with no cameras watching our every move. At least that’s what our mother told us.
Who knows if it was true. I ran out of my room like a bat out of Hell,
desperately needing to figure out where my sister and Sophia were. If anything
bad happened to them, I’d be responsible for it. I’m the one who made the
choice to leave them home alone with the bodyguards.
The sick feeling in my stomach
intensified with every menacing thought crossing my mind. I ran faster, only
stopping to check rooms. The silence was deafening all around me. I never
realized how quiet our house was at night, or how every little shadow simply
heightened the darkness, lurking in every corner I ran passed. The only sounds
that could be heard were resonating off of my body. My adrenaline hammered so
fucking hard while every room I looked in turned up empty.
“Amari! Sophia!” I screamed,
knowing it was useless. The walls in our house were all soundproof.
I stopped in the living room,
hunched over with my hands on my knees, hyperventilating to the point of pain.
After checking every last inch of the house, no one was to be found.
No bodyguards.
No Sophia.
No Amari.
Just me.
“What the fuck?” I breathed out,
peering around the room in confusion like they were going to suddenly appear
out of thin air.
I felt my face pale. All the blood
drained from my body, causing shivers to course through me. I shuddered,
suddenly cold. The hairs on my arms stood on edge when I realized the only room
I hadn’t checked was my father’s office. We were ordered to never go in there
unless he requested our presence. Before I gave it anymore thought, I ran
toward the other end of the house. Frantically trying to ignore the nervous and
fearful feeling I felt in the pit of my stomach and focus on the task at hand.
My heart pounded so profusely I
found it fucking hard to breathe. My mind raced and my chest heaved with each
passing moment, escalating with every step bringing me closer to his office.
Panic began to set in, and I could no longer control my thoughts from running
wild. I anxiously tried to find my resolve.
I was a Martinez.
Not a fucking pussy.
But I was still a kid who was terrified he’d let something
happen to his sister and Sophia. There would be no coming back from this. I
knew that before I even made it into his office. Everything played out in slow
motion like it was a dream. I ran to the door, reached for the handle, turned
the knob, and shoved it open. It made a loud thud as it bounced off the back
wall. I stopped dead in my tracks when I saw the brutal scene playing out in
front of me.
My night quickly turned into my worst fucking nightmare.
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